Saturday, November 05, 2005

The Right One

Somebody once told me that "finding the right
person is very hard and very wrong... it is best
to be the right person for the one you love and
start from there... You'll always end up
disappointed when you set standards and define
a "right person" for you... and don't rush
things...

You can never be perfect...the person you love
can never be perfect...but both of you can be
perfect through love and prayers, and your love
can be perfect through the both of you.

Our relationships fail not because (s)he's not
the right person...it's because we expected too
much and we decided on our own...let God do the
work...you may call it waiting time...but whileyou are waiting...

Love is not what you think it is...Sometimes we
mistakenly feel that our first relationship will
be our last. Because we are overwhelmed with joy
and romance, we forget to learn the meaning of
true love. Some are saying that love is:

*unselfish, blind, unconditional or simply denying one
self for the sake of someone very important inour life.
Others are saying love is immortal and can never be defined.

When we think we're in lovethe first thing we almost wanted the whole world
to know is that our love for someone very specialcan never be taken away from us.

We say this phrase:

*you are the most wonderful gift I have ever received...

After a terrible fight or sometimes even a petty quarrel we then say:

*You are the biggest mistake I've ever made for my entire life!!!
*di mo deserve ang pagmamahal na handa kong ibigay sayo.
*i hope ur heart gets broken a million pieces. I pray u somebody hurts u the way u've been hurting me
*..wala kang kwentang tao. sarili mo lang naiintindihan mo. lubayan mo na ako. wag mo na guluhin buhay ko. i will my realationship with (put name here)

Now, how do you say and spell the word L-O-V-E? Are you really deeply into it?

Nobody can tell what love really is untilexperience speaks and whispers right into ourears. Most of the time, these love promiseslike:

would end up:

*"Never" and "We should part ways,
*you are dead to me,JM. u dont exist. u are dead to me.
*selfinsh ka kung iniisip mo na ikaw lang may karapatan.
*wala akong kilalang JM. wala ka na sa buhay ko. wag ka nang magmsg sa akin. tigilan mo na ako. wag mo na kaming guluhin. for me, YOU DONT EXIST.

Many times we thought after having
committed to someone and your trust to one
another freezes down to zero degrees "SHe ain't
the right one. I should probably wait for the
right one to come." But the big question anyone
could not answer is "she the right one?"
and "When is the right time?" That made us stick
to whom we are with. Will you always be waiting
for the right person to come and the right time
to commit? A big YES is the answer. Don't be in a
hurry to get into a relationship because you can
never find love if you insist that you are
already into it. Try to find time to really
understand your real feelings, to know who you
really are, and what you really want in a
relationship, You're right, there is no such
thing as a perfect relationship, but there's
acompatible partnership that goes along with it.
If you already knew that you're too big to fit
into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try.
You'll probably break it and pay for the damages
you have made. If you knew and felt that there
lationship will not last, don't go deeper into it.
You'll just suffer the consequences and live
like hell the rest of your life.

It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you
can't make it any better by just pretending you
still have the same feelings. Try to let go and
give yourself a chance to live life to thefullest.
Give yourself a chance to grow and give
your heart a much needed attention. Then you
crying as we try to let go. We are
wrong, it's just pity. We call it love when we're
too attached and think that losing the one we
love will somehow make us weak and unable to face
to storms of life. We misunderstood, its just
that we're too much dependent to them. We call it
love when we give our whole life to them, the
wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave
no one would accept us and our past. We are
mistaken, its just insecurity. But no matter what
the definition is, the truth still remains that
love isn't something you can bury nor beg. It is
real and existing. You can't touch it but you can
feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it
will knock before you when you least expect it to
come. It can make you the happiest soul in
heaven, but don't forget that it also can make
you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Black shadow on the Blog

age:24
height:5'11
hometown:pampanga
dating status:Single


when do feel sexy?
haha! Im not! well, after a long bath, when I feel clean and fresh
where's the wackiest place you've ever had sex?
In a beach, had sex under lightning and thunderstorm.
when you kiss, where do your hands go?
on the girls hair, other on girls back giving a gentle massage.
if you could touch a girl with one part of ur body, what would it be?
My chest, so she can feel my heart beat.
what's your dream date and where?
my dream date is a candlelit dinnner on a yacht with a pianist playing soft romantic tunes to set the mood.
faves?
Rocky
Road ice cream. canned fruit. I love the beach! when i hvae time, I play basketball, go to the gym, or hang out with friends.
girl type?
Trinity from the matrix!
Physcally, someone tall, long-haired, and well-proportioned. but more importantly, she shoul be aboul to carry herself well, have a strong character, a good head on her shoulder, and a sense of humor.
Fave sexual position?
woman on top. but doggie style is still great.
what makes a girl sexy?
when she's confident
what kind of girl would you take home to meet your family?
someone who has a good head on her shoulder and has both feet firmly planted n the ground.
whats the worst thing a girl could do to you?
uhmm.. cheat on me? hahaha!

Thursday, November 03, 2005

The Hardest Things..

a.. Being questioned when you yourself don’t understand
b.. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about
c.. Trying to show you care
d.. Trying to forget something you know you NEVER will
e.. Admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you wereright
f.. Accepting the fact that you made a MISTAKE
g.. Debating with yourself
h.. Knowing what’s wrong and what’s righti.. Growing up
j.. ACCEPTING the fact that some things are NOT meant TO BE
k.. Trying to understand when you just can’t
l.. Swallowing your pride when it has become TOO HARD and TOO BIG to evengulp it down with water
m.. Being the LAST TO KNOW about something that CONCERNS you most of all
n.. Realizing that you have been TRICKED after you have given your WHOLETRUST
o.. Realizing that you have taken the most IMPORTANT thing for granted
p.. PARTING with someone you’ve just LEARNED to LOVE
q.. Letting GO of someone you’ve LOVED ALL YOUR LIFE
r.. Losing someone you care deeply about
s.. Saying sorry when you mean it
t.. Saying how you REALLY FEEL and Explaining WHERE YOU STAND
u.. Knowing what is best and yet doing the exact opposite.
v.. Bracing yourself for the worst kind of pain... & still hurting so much.
w.. Loving someone too much and learning to love the pain that goes with it... that even if you learned to let go of the person... you still go on missing the pain you once felt (and there it goes... you fall again)
x.. Denying to yourself that you’re falling... then finally you realizethat indeed you have fallen when it’s too damn late and you cant get out
y.. Being with someone else when the right one comes along (oooh its sad to belong...) .....
z.. Knowing deep inside that you love someone yet you can’t say it out loud.

Here is a poem dedicated to the one i haven't met yet


Beyond the suprficial
by: Black Shadow
edited by: Irish S. (thanks)
My feelings for you go beyond the superficial
understood by all lands for ths sensation is universal
our bond can not be held captive by times limitations
for it seems passed on through many generations
though we ere now present in a new form and shape
It's all so faniliar like something fate can't escape
Indeed I have been preparing this whole life for your coming
since I was a babe, a tune for you, I have been humming
like a jigsaw puzzle with the one last missing piece
Never have I felt so at peace and so not incomplete
No longer do I enjoy the sunset in solitude
No longer do I have a pessimistic attitute
What's mine is yours and vice versa undeniably
others think it's wrong seeing us at times seperately
for we are fused into one being like the
flesh and the senses
And, you have been my ladder in the deepest of trenches.

what would you do if you were the philippine president for a day?

i will hire people smarter than me, not necessarily my friends, to make me run the governemnt because im humble enough to admit that im not the sole solution to the problems of the philippines, unlike some leaders of our country today.